Insert foot in mouth

I have to say I thought the world was really a lot smaller. You know like the song says.
but it's not. And that's ok , that means there are lots more people out there for me to yell at.
I'm kidding.
no really.
yesterday I really did feel like I was the only person in the world who had no voice.
and then someone read this, and I was shocked.
I am new to the whole computer thing. I managed to slip under the radar of every computer class I had in school. Last year when I finally got a computer .... I yelled at it to make my email go. :-)
yah I'm that good.
the idea of communication like this is all very new and strange. But something i can see getting very addicted to.
so really what I have to say is thank you . Wow , who'd of thunk it?

Lost Love?

Have you ever played the what if game?
Of coarse you have. Well that has been my main pastime as of late.

I have been thinking if I hadn't made certain decisions ( ie: getting married at 21 , having a baby, moving out to Vancouver) my life would be something else.
Well duh , right?

But what I'm wondering is who would it have been with? It wouldn't have been with my husband I know this. The high school sweet heart? Not likely , we're still friends.
Or the guy that was always there as a friend and then found out he loves you? Well....... Could be?

So do I regret all these things? Good question. Should I?

My marriage is a wreck ( big surprise) but I have my daughter. I don't regret her.
I'm out in a place where I have no family , but I've made great friends, I don't regret that.

Do I try and find the lost 'love' or do I just let it be? I would love to be able to just say sorry.

Unsure and unsettled

I'm just having a right sh*t day.
And well I clicked on something wrong and wound up here. I thought this looked fun , but honestly I think I will be the only person reading this.

Oh well ... cathartic I guess.

So there are wars raging all over the world ....and all that I'm worried about is if I get my house clean in time for visitors (damn you Martha)

So there you go.
I'm a selfish bastard just like all those people I hate. I'm one of them. That alone makes me want to run out and give all my $ to charity. But then I would have none and that would suck.